I'm either a Lesbian or a Bisexual who is Aroace towards men only. I could really use some insight.
I've posted about this before but could use the insight from others. The core of my problem is cliche but it is fictional men. Mainly romantic/aesthetic attraction to androgynous anime boys, however, I'm pretty sex repulsed even towards fictional men. I know for a fact i'm not attracted to the traditional male body.
I've never been attracted to men irl in any way. I have only experienced attraction to women in real life, along with plenty of fictional female crushes. I'm more than confident about my attraction to women lol.
Since I only have romantic attraction to fictional men and zero sexual attraction to men period I suppose that would make me Aroace?...but only towards men?
Upon researching I've found that the idea of lesbians having fictional male crushes is...divisive to say the least. Mainly because the author of the infamous "lesbian masterdoc" is now married to a man.
I felt pretty secure in my sexuality as a lesbian up until recently when people began tearing the masterdoc apart and saying that no "real" lesbian has fictional male crushes, hence why i'm so confused now.
I will also mention that I do have OCD (which im currently in therapy for) so these patterns of doubting myself or trying to constantly "check" certain things about myself is a bad habit of mine. So it'd possible this is just my OCD talking, however it's hard to tell.
Any insight or advice would be very helpful! thank you for reading :)