Hey everyone, trigger warning for SA.
I was SA’d a few weeks ago. I already have such a low level of love for myself, so I’ve been feeling like I deserve it.
I got out of a relationship that was emotionally and physically unfair and neglectful. And the more I think about what he did to me while I devoted my entire being to him, the more it reinforces those negative beliefs about myself.
I seriously think something is wrong with my worth as a human being. Has anyone else experienced this and come out the other side? What do I have to do to deserve love and loyalty? What do I have to change about myself to stop unconsciously searching for ways to punish myself with horrible men and bad choices and “false beliefs” (that feel SO, SO, true)? I’m so tired. I need help. I need prayer. I’m at the end of my rope.