u/Tinnie_33

I went to the clinic today, to see my new Doctor.

I had my legs crossed, when sitting at the Doctor's office, and I don't know if I saw it as an issue or not, due to trying to process other things, in the moment.

A few minutes during the appointment, the doctor said "You know that other patients sit there?".

I immediately put my legs down, kindly apologized, and offered to clean it off.

I think he said it was fine, or that someone will just clean it off afterwards.

I feel so embarrassed by this, and can't even remember if it would've been an issue or not, especially due to it not being one, at other doctor's.

This is coming from a genuine place.

This was our first appointment together, and it just felt so uncomfortable, or I kept thinking I did something wrong.

Things sorta became more stressful, when my Dad got in, because him and the Doctor weren't getting along, and I just wanted to leave.

I first went in alone, but when the doctor asked me a question I didn't know how to properly answer on the spot, he asked if my Dad could come in, and I agreed.

The office itself felt claustrophobic, because there's no windows. I had let the Doctor know, and we could open the door.

Overall, I tried my best going to the doctor's, especially since things like this, aren't always easy for me to do so, was able to get information on some things, and get my gender orientation, changed in the system.

I feel so bad for blaming myself. Today was a lot to process.