i have been having debilitating health anxiety for months (well, i've had it my whole life, but it's been particularly bad recently). i am currently recovering from AN B/P which caused me to develop gastritis and GERD, which is just another beautiful example of how mental illness causes physical issues. but regardless, i believed i had an ulcer that would rupture and kill me... i got an endoscopy and was pretty much fine, lol. i had to take two medications to help heal my stomach/esophagus and i'm finally off of them!
but ever since this flareup, i have been having other really weird symptoms. primarily, blurry vision. it comes and goes throughout the day, but is especially bad at night. it's like that derealization feeling where it's like i'm in a dream and can't get back into my body. it's been a terrible experience that i just want to escape from.
i'm at a point where i'm finally starting to accept that this blurry vision may just be from my anxiety. i've gotten every blood lab done and came back pretty much fine. my EKGs and tilt-table test were fine. i didn't want to believe that my health anxiety is so powerful that it's messed with my vision this much for this long, but i think that might be the case. it's absolutely infuriating that a health issue can cause health anxiety, which then causes an entirely new health issue. how is that fair?! not to mention how my anxiety has messed with my sleep, which of course causes a million other problems :/ what's really helped me realize this is how the weird vision really only starts when i think about it, and it gets worse when i'm stressed. the issue is that i think about it right when i wake up because of my stupid OCD. ughhhhh.
anxiety is too powerful for its own good.