I miss my old best friend and want him back
So back in middle school me and a boy, i’ll call him Carter, and we became friends really quickly due to our quirkiness matching and our realness. We soon helped each other with everything we were each others #1 supporters, going to each other with our issues and questions. I loved him so much but I took him for granted. He was in love with me for years and I just assumed he liked the idea of me. I was there for him too yeah, but if i knew then what i have come to understand know, he’s all that i have ever been looking for in a partner and friend. We talked after middle school over text and ft for a while but then we drifted when I was going through it junior year, although when we did text it wasn’t timely or extremely long conversation. Now we text at christmas and, he’s had a girlfriend for a long time and i’m so happy for him but I miss our closeness, I miss who he is and his energy. I’m not sure what to do or if i can even do anything? I just miss him so much it pains me and i still love him so strongly.