u/Think_Ranger8311

I’m battling so much right now. After 36 years of horrific abuse, which has many battles I won’t mention. Yes struggling to live but doing it didn’t get this far being meek, I have severe trust issues after being raped and beaten so much. Guy I’m with turned out to be I’m sure very sociopathic, I’m blunt and honest, he’ll never hit me, a first, admits he is that, but shows he isn’t willing to be anything but yet I’m supposed to waver.. big fu to him right now. Struggling cause my usual nervous system response is to fawn and I’m fighting against it. I dunno why I’m posting. Maybe to vent. Maybe yo be heard. Maybe to feel human. Maybe to pretend others care but thank you for listening.