What should I do
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I am 19M in a relationship for 2 years now so it all started in 2024 i used to like this girl whom I have been friends since childhood i finally confessed my feelings and she rejected me because she liked my best friend but he wasn't very responsive to her , so i decided to play the hero and i convinced my best friend to get into a relationship with her , but it didn't work out between them it lasted like 2 months only
(Just for context she studies at a place away from hometown there she allowed to use phone only twice a week) So long story short It didn't work out between them and then we started talking more and then we got into relationship and it has been normal untill back in last year diwali when she was at home she told me ki she is having sort of overthinking about my best friend and she wants to clear things with him but she didn't have the guts to message him so again i convinced my friend to message her and clear things up ( My friend doesn't know we are in relationship) so they talked and he told her that he wants to end up with her and things backfired on me she got sort of confused between me and him and told me we should break up I was genuinely heart broken but then she apologized and told me it won't happen again so I let it go
But again in January this year she forgot her account password and remembered that she gave it to my best friend when they were in relationship and she told me ki I'll ask him so I was very insecure this time because of what happened last time but she didn't listen to me and added him to her account and talked to him and she told me to 'grow up' but again I let it go
But i could notice that things are starting to get cold between us
Because she was in town for holidays and she has smart phone and we used to talk almost everyday when she gets in town because obviously for 2 years we haven't talked much
But i started noticing coldness so i confronted her and she told me ki can't fight the urge to talk to him and I got hurt very bad and i told her ki finally choose between me and him she hesitated but chose me
But we almost broke up because of two reasons first was my friend and second was that she had doubts about our future and overthinking
But again I let it go and things got back to normal
But whatever happened it's just trauma for me because in my entire life never have i ever abused her or even raise my voice but this year i got abused she told me to 'fuck off' when i confronted her and she told me to grow up when i conveyed what hurted me
And one more time when things were normal again she sent follow request to my friend
I don't know what to do