u/TheOnlyYaori

I'm 16, but when I was 4, I used to tell my mother that I missed my family and my wife.

I won't go into details so I don't sound crazy, but I was like I was on another planet. At that time, I had a group of friends 
(whom I also want to reconnect with), but the person I really need is my wife, we'll call her "K."
I've had many signs from her, little things like feeling her presence, smelling scents, hearing small noises, or even feeling her touch. 
The last sign I received was during a shamanic journey where I was able to see her and hold her in my arms. Unfortunately, since that journey, 
I haven't had any sign of her, and I have no idea how to find her. I've tried the following things daily for two years: opening the third eye and crown chakra, astral projection, 
just letting it pass, guided meditation, and regression meditation.

I'm starting to run out of ideas. Please help me.