Hello fellow introverts. This is not specifically about introversion, so I’m sorry if this isn’t the place to post it. Anyway…
I am a 29 y/o female. I am self-employed, so with my job I only see clients a few times a week. I live alone in a black neighborhood and I am white, and the racism is crazy, so no neighborhood friends. I cut ties with my family long ago, no regrets there. I am in college but at the end of my degree and mostly take virtual or hybrid courses. Plus being 29 in undergrad courses, it’s mainly people way younger than me in my classes. I do not have any friend that I have had longer than a month or so. My entire life, I have had at most one or two friends, but usually none. This is because I have borderline personality disorder, and I have destroyed every close friendship I’ve had the luck of finding by lashing out on them in a rage. I also don’t put myself out there. At all. And I don’t mean to sound condescending, but I am attractive for a woman, and I am quite sure a lot of other women dismiss me because of this.
I have a boyfriend. And the one new friend, but like I said, just started texting, so feels more like an acquaintance. Other than that- I’m alone.
It seems like if you haven’t made any friends by a certain age, you don’t stand a chance. You have to have friends to make friends. Otherwise you’re an outcast. I just wanted to see if anyone feels similarly or has a different perspective to share.