u/TheBaconBooty

Hello, I am 32 F

I was referred here by a different Redditor from r/insomnia because of my discription of the bout of insomnia I am going through right now

Shortened Version:

It is now 10days since this insomnia first started, I have only slept in chunks on the 4th day for about 5-6hours(on Seroquel, stuff left me feeling worse the next day), the 7th day off & on for 12 hours(7 hours after taking Trezodone) & yesterday from 1pm - 7pm(no medical assistance)with only one wakeup, but was so tired I kept sleeping in chunks off & on until now, 4am. I woke up rather dizzy(not as bad while still) whenever I move, mainly my head, that's new.

What made them think I belong here:

Forn many years, I can even remember some in young childhood/teenhood, I often slept late, even now before this all started my most comfortable time to sleep was usually 3am-12pm & from time to time 5am - 3 or 5pm.

I just need some helpful advice & suggestions, going though this insomnia has left me rather hopeless & emotional 😭

Here is a link to my original post for anyone interested: https://www.reddit.com/r/insomnia/comments/1t90niy/comment/ol1jgsg/

Over the past 9 days( it is now 330am, the morning will mark the start of the 9th day) I have not been able to sleep properly.

I have tried Zopiclone, Seroquel, Trazodone & now Dayvigo + Larazapam

I have only had 2 chunks of sleep over this period.

One on the fourth day when I took Seroquel(but it made me feel awful the next day, worse even) for about 6 hours ish?

I then slept for 12 hours off & on not yesterday but the day before so I thought I was finally recovering & tonight is finally sleep a few hours mainly with this new medication but now I'm crying & hopeless, I want my life back so desperately...

I am so exhausted just shifting in bed feels like a lot of effort...

I can't keeps my eyes open, yet the sleep does not come.

(I did sleep on my own this afternoon for about an hour after hours of laying there, but that was it so I decided to take the Dayvigo + Larazapam + Magnesium Glycinate)

Can anyone help me? Will this be forever? Will I get my life back?

I feel like I'm reaching the end of my rope & that terrifies me...

If you get the tital reference, we are friends now!

You may have seen my username on here through the past few days(& on r/sleep) because I was going through(& now hopefully recovering from) the WORST bout of insomnia I've EVER had. I used to think going a night or two(which was "normal" for me most of my life since I've always been a night owl) was hell, but I went 6 days, 6 nights, on the 7th Day, I feel asleep around 8-9am(7 hours after taking Trezodone 50mg, it didn't feel like it did anything for me, but neither did Zopiclone & Secoquel is the DEVIL 👿) off & on, in I think 2-3h fragments? Until about 10pm last night, which I haven't slept since, just been resting my still heavy eyes & my body that feels like an absolute trashcan 🗑️(I assume barely eatting or bed upright for a week will do that to a person on-top of the sleep deprivation).

Here is where y'all come in because I still need some advice after something like this:

1. Nighttime gives me the worst anxiety(I still have it in general but I'm getting better at controlling it since this all started) because those where always the loneliest, drawn out times to be awake. It makes you feel(even if someone is sleeping next to you) so alone to be awake when the world is at rest, something you want more than anything.

Part of me is terrified I won't sleep again later today/night once I start getting SUPER sleepy again. I'm still heavy eyed as is & would love to sleep again now/asap, but it's just not coming for the time being(I assume from sleeping so much off & on yesterday afternoon).

2. Is it normal for my head to ache? Still feel heavy eyed? My stomach to be super upset, my legs to be weak? Overall just GROSS 🤢 feeling? My head to feel light?

3. Is this the start of recovery?

4. Should I ask for something stronger to take tonight?

All I want is to be normal again.

But this experience is also making me realize, dispite my depression, my life really isn't all that bad. It's oddly motivating me to do so much more & better once all this is over & I'm fully back to normal.

Thanks!

This is the morning of my 7th day with barely any sleep, I maybe got 10-12 hours total.

I have no idea why this suddenly started. If I miss a night, I can usually sleep fine during the day, but this time, I haven't been able to.

I seen Doctors & been to the ER- I have tried Zopiclone, it did nothing for me, I tried Trazodone, it did nothing, I tried Seroquel, it worked but thee side effects left me feeling even worse!

What do I do now!? I'm on the edge, I don't care when I sleep, I just need a few nights of restorative sleep!

First off, hello!

I'm Naylor (32F) Canadian

I have always struggled a bit with sleep in my life since I hit my early 20's

On top of that, I have always struggled with anxiety & depression

Usually if I miss a night of sleep, I can usually pass out on my own, early the next day & sleep for the whole day

At worst, I've gone about 36-48 hours without sleep & would eventually knock out on my own after I kept trying enough

This brings me to this past week...

I didn't have anxiety at first because I gotten used to these insomnia cycles happening from time to time, I figured I'd pass out naturally on my own HOWEVER once the 3rd day arrived & I still didn't sleep, anxiety started to sleep in, thankfully I was able to fall asleep for about 6 hour that afternoon. BUT when I woke up, I felt awful, like I didn't sleep at all, I was just as exhausted as before I slept 😭 but I stayed up because I had stuff to do. Once I felt like I could not longer keep my eyes open even more, laid in bed, but the night came & went, no sleep. The next day I couldn't handle it anymore with how tired I felt, how desperate for restorative sleep I was & went to a Walk In Clinic. The Doctor gave me Zopiclone, I was hopeful to finally get some sleep, I didn't care if it was during the day, once I'm normal again, I can slowly taper it to fit more consistent sleep times.

I took the medication, tried my damnest to be as calm as I could be with my anxiety, it took hours before fell asleep & it was only for a couple of hours at best, I was feeling really overwhelmed. I figured I'd keep trying but the rest of the day & into the week hours of the morning came.

I still haven't slept, this will be the 5th day without proper sleep or no sleep.

I panicked, full on attack & felt like I was dying so my boyfriend woke up & rushed me to the ER.

The doctor there game me Seroquel(12.5mg), a low dose of an anti physotic medication for Bipolar & Scitzaphriena. I was hesitant on taking it for that reason but also desperate for sleep...

He said if the first 12.5mg don't put me to sleep, take the other one too.

Once I took the first 12.5, I waited & I felt it kick in, like it was really trying to knock me out, so I waited about another hour, I was still awake so I took the other 12.5mg. Not sure when I feel asleep that(yesterday) afternoon but I slept off & on.

When I woke up around 8:45pm to use the bathroom, get some water & a snack, I was still extremely exhausted, felt like I barely slept at all really but on-top of that my anxiety was back because of thee side effects of the medication & how it was making me feel...

Light headed, detached from reality, weak & heavy limbs, shakey, exhausted. It is now 3:30am & I can still feel the side effects, not as intense as they where by sure are still noticeable.

I been trying to sleep it off since I do still feel tired, but I haven't been able to get back to sleep. Soon it will be 5:30am & my bf will have to go to work for 12h. I will be alone for the first time since all this started & it has me spooked, mainly if these symptoms keep lingering or I can't even get a nap in on my own this morning/afternoon.

If anyone can give me help, advice, stick around, I'd appreciate it. Thanks!

First off, hello!

I'm Naylor (32F) Canadian

I have always struggled a bit with sleep in my life since I hit my early 20's

On top of that, I have always struggled with anxiety & depression

Usually if I miss a night of sleep, I can usually pass out on my own, early the next day & sleep for the whole day

At worst, I've gone about 36-48 hours without sleep & would eventually knock out on my own after I kept trying enough

This brings me to this past week...

I didn't have anxiety at first because I gotten used to these insomnia cycles happening from time to time, I figured I'd pass out naturally on my own HOWEVER once the 3rd day arrived & I still didn't sleep, anxiety started to sleep in, thankfully I was able to fall asleep for about 6 hour that afternoon. BUT when I woke up, I felt awful, like I didn't sleep at all, I was just as exhausted as before I slept 😭 but I stayed up because I had stuff to do. Once I felt like I could not longer keep my eyes open even more, laid in bed, but the night came & went, no sleep. The next day I couldn't handle it anymore with how tired I felt, how desperate for restorative sleep I was & went to a Walk In Clinic. The Doctor gave me Zopiclone, I was hopeful to finally get some sleep, I didn't care if it was during the day, once I'm normal again, I can slowly taper it to fit more consistent sleep times.

I took the medication, tried my damnest to be as calm as I could be with my anxiety, it took hours before fell asleep & it was only for a couple of hours at best, I was feeling really overwhelmed. I figured I'd keep trying but the rest of the day & into the week hours of the morning came.

I still haven't slept, this will be the 5th day without proper sleep or no sleep.

I panicked, full on attack & felt like I was dying so my boyfriend woke up & rushed me to the ER.

The doctor there game me Seroquel(12.5mg), a low dose of an anti physotic medication for Bipolar & Scitzaphriena. I was hesitant on taking it for that reason but also desperate for sleep...

He said if the first 12.5mg don't put me to sleep, take the other one too.

Once I took the first 12.5, I waited & I felt it kick in, like it was really trying to knock me out, so I waited about another hour, I was still awake so I took the other 12.5mg. Not sure when I feel asleep that(yesterday) afternoon but I slept off & on.

When I woke up around 8:45pm to use the bathroom, get some water & a snack, I was still extremely exhausted, felt like I barely slept at all really but on-top of that my anxiety was back because of thee side effects of the medication & how it was making me feel...

Light headed, detached from reality, weak & heavy limbs, shakey, exhausted. It is now 3:30am & I can still feel the side effects, not as intense as they where by sure are still noticeable.

I been trying to sleep it off since I do still feel tired, but I haven't been able to get back to sleep. Soon it will be 5:30am & my bf will have to go to work for 12h. I will be alone for the first time since all this started & it has me spooked, mainly if these symptoms keep lingering or I can't even get a nap in on my own this morning/afternoon.

If anyone can give me help, advice, stick around, I'd appreciate it. Thanks!

I went 2 days & 2 nights without sleep, then I slept for about 6hours yesterday afternoon, but I wolw up feeling worse than ever...

I been trying to sleep all night tonight because my eyes are so heavy I can barely tolerate keeping them open, but when I try to sleep all my symptoms go wild.

I get panic/anxiety, my whole body(but mainly my legs) feel weak, I feel shakey, I feel sick to my stomach, I feel overheated, I feel a bit light headed & now a headache.

I have tried breathing exercises, I have tried relaxing in bed with my eyes closed, just resting them, I've tried listening to something that would usually help me sleep, I know melatonin does not work well for me.

I will keep resting & hoping I fall asleep, but it sure is an awful feeling going through this right now.