I miss you but I’m no longer hoping for us
I don't know if this is just an unfinished grief, but I miss you, but the same time I am no longer hoping for us to choose us again. Both can co-exist i believe. Still, can I miss you and us saying each other's name repeatedly? Though there are hundreds of reasons for us to finally say goodbye. I am no longer hoping for us to choose us again, or maybe for now? Again, hoping may just be an unfinished grief. Is everything an unfinished grief when you visit my mind? This isn't really about you anymore, it's me and my own growth. Is to think of each other means we are not moving forward?
Maybe it's just about missing something you used to share, and not the person themselves. It used to be him specifically, but that has to do with me and my perspective, on how I see him. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, I was just his observer, lover, believer, whatever they call it. But to move on you don't have to do that anymore, you don't have to see what's in them, you don't have to see what's new that could make them special. We were just humans mirroring each other. Now we’re no longer mirrors or reflections of one another, we chose to grow apart. I hope it really is that, because it feels kinder than saying one of us gave up on the other.