Does the jealousy ever get better?
I’m 22M, developed C-PTSD in 2023 after a car-crash and was diagnosed with autism in early 2020, been struggling hard with agoraphobia since the summer of 2023 sort of as a result of a “Just Right” OCD mindset. Its gotten better, I got an incredible service dog that makes it much more possible for me to go out, but even then sometimes it feels impossible for me to leave my home.
When my partner gets invited to or goes out with our mutual friends I find myself getting really jealous and irritated. Ive never ever let on that I feel that way and I would never dream of taking it out on my friends or partner, but god damn does it eat away at me. It doesn’t help that a lot of the planning goes on right in front of me in mutual discord servers.
It feels like its my fault that Im like this, so I just get resentful that my partner has no inhibitions like that and gets to go have adventures and new experiences, but I also am acutely aware that I wouldn’t have fun going out and doing these things, my social battery is a quarter the size of everyone else’s and I’d just end up wanting to come home anyways.
Does it get better? How do I stop putting this misplaced anger into my partner literally just going to spend time with friends? Any advice is appreciated