u/TaperingRanger9

I've had this problem since forever. I meet people, they really like me at first, they ask me to hangout and go out of their way to talk to me, the friendship lasts for how ever many months or years and then they slowly go quiet. Like it always starts off with them no longer going out of their way to hangout or talk and them only doing so if I reach out first. Then ever so slowly they stop hanging out with me and after that they stop talking to me altogether. This always happens to me and there's never any explanation of what I did wrong. Obviously the problem is me and I'm not saying people are obligated to be my friend. It's just really upsetting that no one ever tells me why so that I can at least learn from it and better myself. I feel like there's something inherently wrong with me that I'm not realizing but idk what to change about myself because no one will tell me. It really hurts and I don't want to be lonely anymore. Any advice?

I'm in a good spot now, but looking back it's kind of insane what I had to tolerate in order to rack up experience.

The worst job I've had in this career by far was a dedicated heavy haul account with Schneider. Loads were 95k GVW, going over mountain passes and etc. Which is fine but get this, the job only paid $18/hr while driving, $15/hr not driving. McDonald's workers get paid more than that in my area. 2 AM start time too which I personally wasnt a fan of.

If someone tried to offer me 18 bucks an hour now I'd just laugh. It's crazy how desperate I was back then lol. What about all of you?