I don’t see it getting better
I’m 27, turning 28 in may and have no path in life. I currently work at costco and while it’s a good job with great benefits I hate it. I’ve been there for over 5 years and I’ve gotten to the point where genuinely don’t want to live anymore if that all life has to offer. Im not saying I want to kill myself but more like I don’t want to exist. I would see my life as a joke if that’s all I amount to in life.
2 years ago I destroyed my knee snowboarding requiring 3 surgeries. I lost all my saving because I couldn’t work for 8 months forcing me to move back in with my mom. A month ago at work the same knee gave out causing my knee cap to move all the way up my femur requiring a 4th surgery. I will be having a cadaver graft and the doctor mentioned having to cut my quad to be able to move my knee cap down. All in all I’m looking at a brutal recovery. The joke is that I actually enlisted the army the day before the accident in hopes to find a path in life but that’s out the window now.
So to break it down. Im pushing 30, have a busted knee, less than 5k to my name. I dropped out of college (the college I went to was. diploma mill) and don’t really have a discernible skills or trades. I have put the last 2 years trying to regain my body after all the surgeries just to be back to square 1. I feel like a failure and have lost hope that my life will change for the better but here I am hoping that maybe someone has some advice that isn’t seek god.
I guess the question is what would you do if you were in my shoes? What would your entire life you depended on your body to make money just for it to finally gave out?