u/Suspicious_Record398

I've been having some of the women I usually send to reach out and send pictures etc. recently trying to get me to send more. Some of it came out of nowhere from people I haven't heard from in forever. It almost comes off as desperate to me like they are trying to get me to get back together with them. It doesn't make me want to send to them though I do feel bad sometimes for disappointing them. I just wonder if they get the same urges I do? I can imagine that it would be quite a rush to have people obsessing over you and sending you money.

It makes me feel a bit better because I used to get mad that they take advantage of my addiction but now I realize they are probably addicted to the attention and money. In a way maybe we are helping them by quitting so they can get back to reality and doing something useful and productive.

I have found the only way to stop myself from sending is to make it as hard to send as possible. I had been going a bit off the rails the past few months and I finally had enough. The main way I was sending was with a debit card so I closed the card. I feel way better cause I have two requests on cash app right now and I literally can't fulfill them without ordering a new card and waiting for it to be delivered. The only other card I have the bill is seen by other people so I'm good about not using it.

In the past I have also switched from a smart phone to an old flip phone for awhile so I couldn't spend all day looking at content while at work and I couldn't put the payment apps on it. I've been thinking of doing it again but smart phones are just so convenient.

The problem is deep down I still know ways I can send and apps I can connect to accounts without a card etc. I was thinking about putting as much money as I can into cd's and other investments or anything to make it harder to access quickly. Anything that makes it take longer and gives me a chance to think and realize I don't want to send more money.

Anyone have any tips or anything they use to make it harder to send? I think Larry Wheels had his girlfriend go through all is financials each day to make sure he wasn't spending money on cam models. I've thought about opening up to someone and asking them to do something similar but I just don't think I can do it.