My (recent) ex boyfriend said I wasn’t high value enough to be with forever
I (27F) caught my boyfriend (M31) of 3 years texting another girl a few weeks ago. I confronted him, he apologized a thousand times, then we talked about it for HOURS and came to the conclusion that things maybe could be better within our relationship and we would put in the work to get there. A few days after that, he bought a flight to go visit this girl. Then called me to say he should have said he was out and he just wasn’t sure this was end game for him.
I’m heartbroken obviously. As I was deleting all his shit from our shared icloud, I saw he was looking up “what to do when you feel like someone is not high value enough to be with forever” and that hit me so deeply. I know I’m not perfect in a lot of areas, but I showed up with integrity and commitment and loved him wholeheartedly. I genuinely just wanted to see him succeed. I immediately closed out of it and deleted his account off my computer, but I wish I’d never seen that. I’m so so tired of crashing over this. I feel so inadequate and guilty and he’s just moving on with someone else like I was trash.
How does one get over this!!!!! Truly