Coping with first deployment
Hey everyone, I know this isn't necessarily the right place to post this, but I figured the significant others of military could be helpful and reassuring. I have a lifelong friend who is currently deployed, left on Friday. They told me before they left that there's a possibility that they wouldn't be able to communicate with me the entire deployment, but I suspect that's a "preparing me for the worst" kind of thing, or at least I hope so, because this person and I are very best friends. They said they'd contact me any chance they'd get. Platonic soul mates, in a way, and we've been a huge part of each others lives, and I miss them so much it is giving me anxiety about my own sanity. My chest feels so heavy, my brain feels foggy, and I'm an emotional rollercoaster. Sometimes I'm okay, and then I get hit with a wave of crazy.
I can handle long distance, a lot of our friendship has been years without seeing each other in person, but we'd always text constantly, and call daily. I just wish I could talk to them, almost feels like I'm going through withdrawals lol! But really the anxiety has been so bad I am concerned for myself, does it get easier? I can't really afford to go into a mental spiral right now, but I feel so on edge, like a piece of me is missing. I'm sure all of this is perfectly normal response, but I've never really been in this situation, and it feels like grief.
Any hope about it getting easier, any reassurance that I'll be okay...much appreciated.
Thanks so much.