u/SubstantialClient725

its the worst theme ever, and it came back after years. My ex comes to my mind at everything, and i constantly try to ignore it and think about my current bf instead. Having thoughts about my ex drives me insane and makes me feel extremely disgusted, traumatized and insanely guilty. I only want to have thoughts about my partner, i only want to think about him, i only want to love him. Im having constant disgusting and unfaithful thoughts about my ex and current relationship. “what if i still love my ex? what if i miss him? What if i see my current partner as my ex and im using him?”

i feel like a monster. Ocd shit cant be real, i have this for 8+ years and i still cant handle it. I feel like an unfaithful, disgusting partner.