Lately I’ve been very angry with everything and everyone
As of lately I’ve been very angry. I recently got broken up with from a 10 year relationship due to my ex saying I was “extra weight” and the relationship was “weighing her down” because she felt I was too nice for her and how guilty she felt about treating me terrible towards the end of the relationship. When I told my friends about it they either had not much to say or in their own words basically told me to get over it and go throw myself out to lots of women as a bachelor. As someone coming off a 10 year relationship where there was talks of potential marriage, children, and moving in together this made me very upset. Not long after my disease caused by stress (assuming it’s from the break up) has started to act up again causing burning itching hives and facial rashes. At the moment I’m getting in touch with a specialist for the disease but this also angered me it feels like someone is rubbing salt in open wounds. I told my friends in a group chat about this and it kind of just got ignored and everyone went on with other conversations as if I hadn’t said anything. Not long after I left the group chat. I say all this to so say now I’ve isolated myself from everyone, I’m angry, I feel betrayed. I feel discarded and unheard even though I do my best to be the most kind generous and helpful person I can be. I feel like it’s gotten me no where and now I kinda hate people and most things. Is this feeling of hate relatable to anyone in anyway or do I kind of just sound like some whiny brat with a chip on their shoulder? I appreciate all replies and insight would love to hear others perspective on this.