Maybe even you seem divided, but you are one. Even when there is a feeling of incompleteness, you are complete. In that oneness, in that completeness, there is a natural stream of eternal joy which does not depend on anything. This may be freedom.
“I see so many desires within me, so many intentions seeking fulfillment. It seems the root of all intention is the longing to experience joy. But when joy depends on fulfilling desires and outer situations, it feels rare and accidental. Even when a desire is fulfilled, the joy is only momentary; it fades, and misery returns. If desire is not fulfilled, suffering seems inevitable.....
This makes me question whether lasting or eternal joy can ever come through desire and its fulfillment at all. What if real joy is not dependent on intention, achievement, or external conditions? What if it does not come from getting something, but exists independent of both fulfillment and lack? Maybe it depends on everything and nothing at once.
A lot of mystics and yogis say that Shiva isn’t just one thing, and Shakti isn’t just something it’s everything.