I'm paranoic in my relationship with the BPD friend. What should I do?
I don't know who I should talk to about this, so I came here.
I just found out that my closest friend, which is also the only one I can have deep conversations with, has BPD. And I'm not sure if I can talk directly to her about the way our friendship affects me.
The thing is, if I am to be really honest, this relationship is messing up really bad with my mental health, even if I love my friend a lot.
I tend to overthink everything about it and I always fear she may hate me or I may lose her. I went as far as I SHed in hopes she would show me that she cares about me (I'm more than one month clean now, thanks to her).
I don't really know if I am the problem or if her mood changes make me anxious and I don't know what to do. Should I talk to her about it or would it do more harm to her?
For now, she doesn't know any of all this.