I feel so lost right now I don’t know what to do.
I’m currently in my second year at a community college nearing towards the end of finishing up my general education. For context, I went back to college because my parents especially my mom wanted me to. I’ve been in and out of college for years. I first attended straight out of high school but I didn’t last long because at the time I was doing very poorly and I had no idea what I wanted to do. The second time it was the same, I felt lost and I wasn’t doing so great so I left. Some time went by and I didn’t go back till now. The issue is that I still don’t know what I want to do. I’ve gone back and forth with different ideas but I haven’t been able to stick with anything. Also mentally I haven’t doing so well. It’s been really hard for me to feel motivated and do my work especially this semester. I’m currently struggling with one of my classes and I’m worried that I’m going to fail. I was doing well up until now, this class has just been hard for me. I feel bad because I’m 24 and I still have no clue what I want to do with my life. I question if going back to college a third time was even the right thing to do.
I currently have business administration down as my choice as I didn’t know what else to choose but now I don’t know how I feel about it. I did look through the rest of the degrees and certificates offered and I found a couple of certs related to logistics. I did find one that seems kind of interesting to me and it’s not very long either though considering that I’ve already been in college for two years and that I’m pretty much done with my general ed I don’t know if it’s even worth switching from my original plan to go for a certificate instead. I just feel like at this point I have no choice but to stick with my plan to transfer and get my bachelors since I’m already this far. Plus I feel like backing out to go for a certificate would disappoint my parents. My parents aren’t paying for my schooling but they have always wanted me to go and graduate. I just feel like a failure and it’s been making me feel horrible. I don’t know if I should just suck it up finish what I have left at CC and transfer to get the bachelors or stop to get a certificate and leave. There have been moments where I asked myself if college is even for me or if perhaps I just need more help and motivation to keep going. Has anyone here felt this way? If so what advice would you give?