Here I am again,checking,hoping ,chasing shadows of you. Looking for just a crumb,but there isn't. A miss you, a shadow, I hate you, a shadow. Tortured,absolutely. A slow, painful, existence I'm bearing. In this status,I could never share myself,not my heart. I couldn't fathom. This pain,yeah I earned it. Complain, not worth it. Forever sorry,wasn't worth it! For anything I ever did. Still not worthy! Not even a moment.
I sooner die than risk ever hurting you again,,everyday without you has been as excruciating as a lifetime of pain,and I could only imagine how much more exponentially profound this has to be for you. If and when you will allow it, I want to hold the pain and carry the burdensome load,you've done it by yourself for far to long. Whenever,Wherever,Whatever! Me.
It doesn't matter how much time goes by, you know our hearts are inextricably wound. It's yours!. In this entire expanse all I want is you! To have and to hold. And when you're ready to be,you and me again. I'm ready. Stuck like Krazy glue ,my forever ,just me and you! Loving you in every generous present moment gratefully,never reaching behind to indict or prosecute a past as it steals from the present and clouds the future. My heart belongs to you, and only you and the second you'll have me, is the moment that I'll spend every waking moment of my existence loving you and no other. You're all I need in this world to be whole. You are my everything ,my best friend, my heart, my soul,my muse. So do you,babe. It's not now or never it's whenever you're better,cause no matter the weather,we'll face it together. Inextricably linked cause you're my forever.
So take your time and I'll work on me and when you're ready so am I. Ready to be Complete! I love you too, I don't know how not to. Me.
You say I know, and all I want to do is trust what was. Just like you say,you don't want the words anymore. show me with a deed. Drive by and give Scar and Bubba some love give me 10 minutes of your time. we can talk right at the street and you don't even have to get out if you don't want. Bring somebody if that makes you feel safer. I need a small deed. Am I worthy? Or are you just gonna keep killing me with pretty words?