Considering changing my study path
In september I started a Bachelor in Computer Science at a fachhochschule. Now it’s been 4 months that I’m wondering if I should change my path or not.
I’m having a really bad time to enjoy all the subjects except from those regarding math (such as calculus, linear algebra, discrete math) and physics, which I love them and I can spend a lot of time on those.
I don’t have that excitment to learn more of the various courses, no interest at all (and yeah I never thought of feeling this way before since I did an apprenticeship in the same field, even tho it was a bad one in terms of what you learn). I feel like there’s too much focus on programming (especially the 2nd and 3rd year), and while I see the potential and how useful it is, I’d prefer it as a side thing, not the main focus.
So now I’m in a position where I have good grades on the math subjects and physics (over 5), and bad grades in those regarding informatics as a whole.
There are other reasons such as a bad teaching in some subjects, but I don’t want to go too much in depth on this.
I’d really like to study physics (it fascinate me A LOT, I really like to know better how our universe works and interacts…then I also love astronomy/astrophysics). I know the EPFL has the CMS year before the bachelor, and I’m looking forward to it. Not scared of the difficulty, since I think that with hard work and dedication you can do it.
But…my situation is a bit…heavy.
I lost my dad a little over a year ago, that event put me and my mom in a difficult situation financially speaking. She doesn’t work (and doesn’t want to, even tho she’s followed by a psychiatrist because her mental health got worse after my dad’s death, which is fair and understandable) and she’s under Assistance. For me, I’m doing 2 side jobs to increase our budget (doing math lessons and food delivery), while studying.
I tried to talk with her about the idea of doing the EPFL, but it’s impossible to discuss with her and literally told me that I’m not able to do it, that the language is a problem (I live in Ticino), where do I get the money (did all the calculations, and I can do it with a cantonal scholarship without any problems, if the canton accepts it) and all those heart warming words that a son wants to listen.
I really need to change my life, I want to go outside my comfort zone and put myself in a condition where my main focus is to study without all the worries of life, my mother’s thoughts and so on.
So after this long post, what do u think I should do? I really have to read some suggestions.
Sorry for the long post