i’m a mom and so sad
i, f32, am a solo parent to the most amazing little boy… but his dad is almost completely out of the picture, he lives in another state and is starting an entirely new family that my son feels no part of. he was not invited to their wedding, his dad forgets to call him, forgot about his surgery he just had, it’s heartbreaking to watch as a mother. my son has expressed to me he no longer wants to visit his dad so i’ve been speaking to countless attorneys to protect my little ones mental health meanwhile mine is absolutely deteriorating.
i feel so alone carrying the weight of working multiple jobs so my child never feels we’re a single income home. there is no coparent around to help or give me an occasional break to just be myself and do something for me. i have no family and i just feel like i can’t breathe. i don’t want to live i’m so tired but i couldn’t do that to my boy so here i am, in my 30s, cutting myself… i don’t even know why, i just have this urge to, to see the cuts and feel the pain…
i don’t even really know why i’m posting this, i just feel so alone, like there’s two hands around my throat at all times and i can’t escape it.