Does anyone else with BPD experience meltdowns like this?
I was recently diagnosed with borderline personality disorder last year, although I had suspected it before from taking psychology courses and reading a lot on my own.
I’m posting because I want to know if others experience meltdowns the same way I do. When you go into meltdown mode, do you tend to fight, flight, or freeze?
I used to mostly “flight,” but recently I feel like I don’t even have that option. I’ve moved to a new state and don’t really know anyone here, so now it feels more like “fright” or freeze. Everything I have to do just keeps looping in my head over and over, like a racetrack.
I also find myself missing an ex who doesn’t want anything to do with me, which confuses me because I’ve been with my current partner for 7 years. I don’t understand why I feel this way.
Another thing I’ve noticed is that during these moments, I almost revert back to a childlike state. I feel like I need to be protected, like I just want my mom, and I want to hide in bed. Lately I’ve even been working from bed because I feel too overwhelmed to function normally.
Does anyone else experience this kind of regression or fear during meltdowns? Any thoughts or shared experiences would really help.