Is this the end for us?
Lately ive been depressed and overwhelmed and I feel like living with daca is such a heavy burden to carry, like im beyond grateful to be able to work but then daca also weighs me down. I keep thinking to myself what will my life look like in 5 or 10 years. Will I be deported, what will happen to my family. These thoughts just consume me and I feel like I have not been enjoying life for the past 10 years. Its like im always expecting daca to end and when it doesnt I just wait for another republican president to eliminate us. Not that I want daca to end obviously I dont but when you get so accustomed to patterns you keep waiting for the bad to happen. And thats a very draining way to live.
Im exhausted if I had the means I would get a visa and leave and not return, my pets keep me here. They're all seniors and I would feel bad to travel with them. Life in america doesn't even feel real, feels like we're just robots whose future is in the hands of people who don't like us.
To me it feels like the end and its such a ridiculous thing to say but are we really supposed to believe we'll be safe forever?.