Interested in a girl for marriage (Shia islam | Syed )
I'm a 17 year old male who comes from a
'syed' family, I am a practicing Shia Muslim who lives in the uk. I have seen a girl around college who i am interested in with right intentions (marriage). It all started on Layla-Tul-Qadr nights, i had done dua for whoever my future spouse is (as we all sometimes definitely wonder, who our future partner will be). The next few days i go into college and my heart immediately stops on her (yes my heart). I had seen her around before but never had felt such attraction from her, or from anyone really. It was so special, i didn't even really see what she exactly looked like it was just "Her ✨".
But then again i didn't think too much about it, then she just came to mind a few times throughout the day even when i got home. When i laid down in bed at night, i closed my eyes to form her face infront of me (i hadn't even see her enough to know exactly what she looked like but she was still on my mind). Then again the next day she kept coming to mind but i just let the thought of her float at the top of my head for a short while then i would shake her off and try not to think about her too much.
The next day was Layl a Tul Qadr (it being the nights 19,21,23) but this time around i felt the need to read tahailud (i've never read tahajjud before) i used to in fact find it
'cheesy' that people are reading tahajjud for a gir. But i found my self reading it, i then would see her around, again remaining the same i would brush the thought of her away not let it sink in to deep (u end up thinking of someone more when your trying to not think of them). i kept seeing her in college and i would admire her from a distance then i had built the confidence to approach her and ask her abit about her self (find out if she is shia and sveda or not) but the day i thought to approach (just afew days before easter holidays) she wasn't in for the Monday or Tuesday and i don't go on wednesdays so on the tuesday i knew i wasn't going to see her before the holidays now (my game plan was to find out before the holidays so the thought of her can just flatten down) but now knowing she is going to be on my mind for another two weeks i thought it was a good idea to discuss with a friend in hopes of him being able to find out if she's shia or not (he knew one of her friends mutually) unfortunately he wasn't able to find out (i did find out the her freinds name - this will come in place later) so the idea of not thinking about her turned out wrong and she is now in my head. i've had read tahajiud a few more times read 'namaz e hajjat'. Fast forward a few weeks (of me having her in my head) later i tried approaching her but wasn't able to ask her. so i decided to message her friend on teams chat (i knew her name from my friend) and she had said that she isn't shia but she had also said to "go ask her your self" so then my thought is that i don't want have regret of not knowing. so i want to approach her but it's already awkward. i've been reading tahajjud for the past 4 nights the first night after reading tahajjud and praying for the best between us i made sure i slept with wudu and asked Allah Swt for a sign and there it was i had a dream.
Me and her were sat down her face in my hands i was holding her face from in a way where my fingers were wrapped around her head and my thumbs where wiping her tears infront and she felt relaxed, at peace, comfortable while we was talking to each other it was full with emotions happy tears, sense of relief, peace.
after reading all of this what do you think about my situation.