Healing from losing a friend group with a new trigger
Hey everyone. I’m going to try and keep this short. Almost two years ago, I had a falling out with a friend group that I was close to for almost 15 years. I feel like I saw them through everything. I went through a really bad low and dark place going through a messy break up with my abusive ex/father of my two children, being so burnt out and overused at work and having to make a decision on terminating a pregnancy. I was in a really bad place and was not the kindest but had seen them through everything and hoped/wished I would have the same.
Instead, everyone turned their back on me and when I confided in my bestfriend who was outside of the group, she used that to take my place in the group.
I apologized for how I acted during a low point but was left with a lot of silence and now seeing this person make me feel replaceable, sent me to a deeper low.
I am now almost two years out and have been making peace with my past and grateful for the growth I was able to do since and have created a really beautiful life.
Last weekend I found out my ex had been lying about “events” he was taking our children too, and is now close to the old friend trip and taking my kids to their kids birthday parties and being deceitful with where they are going. My ex is really upset I am married and moving forward, though we broke up 4 years ago, and I had thought coparenting wise tho, we had come such a long way.
I am at a loss and feeling like I’m mourning and grieving all over again while also feeling like maybe I didn’t know them at all. Just looking for guidance