u/SnowboardMia

I don’t know how else to explain it lol but I need to change now! I remember growing up, no matter the time of night, I could go in my mom’s room and wake her up if I needed anything, and she would be up in a second tending to me. It was so comforting and I want to be like that for my kids (1y and 3yrs). Some days if they wake me up I’m just like my mom was. And other days (I guess when I’m super tired??) I’m half asleep when they wake me and I start like yelling “just go to sleep!” “SHHH” “stop!” Again I know I’m doing this, but it doesn’t feel like I’m 100% conscious. But in the morning I feel so guilty. Does anyone else relate? And how can I change something I do when I’m half asleep?

I am freaking out about Huntingtons disease, someone talk me down. Okay bear with me. Ever since I’ve heard this one sentence I’ve been obsessing that I’m going to get huntingtons. I’m adopted. Don’t know much about my birth mom but she messages me on Facebook sometimes. And then all I know about my Biological grandmother is that she died youngish and was an “epileptic drunk crazy person”. After finding out about Huntingtons my mind immediately went to that sentence, what if she had huntingtons?!? I know this is super far fetched but it literally haunts my thoughts everyday that my time is limited with my kids, that any day I could start showing symptoms.

Has anyone actually gained weight when they stopped eating their triggers? I can’t keep weight on at all and am really hoping to be able to gain. I’m thinking since my body was attacking my trigger foods that maybe my body never absorbed the nutrition I was taking ?