Not enlighted anymore
Around a year ago I went to travel 1000km on my own for a festival. I found real intense and pure love there and decided to stay there with my love.
I felt so light, happy and in the now when I decided to read the Power of Now, and everything I read there made sense, I felt it. It became clear to me that the feeling I was feeling was described as being enlightened by Eckhart Tolle. I was in this state for around 10 months. During that time I learned so much about myself and spirituality and I feel like I grew so much spiritually.
After about 9 months of being in that relationship I saw that the relationship was not healthy for me anymore and we broke up and I traveled back to my home country in the same day.
When I came home after the breakup I traveled again, for 10.000 km this time to stay somewhere for a month and learn more about spirituality inside of me. I continued to grow spiritually during that time and learned so much more about myself.
Now it's around a year later since my first travel I described here and I feel like I'm struggling with being in the now as much as before. I feel like I'm thinking more again and my head and body are more with my friends and family than with spirituality. I am less in touch with my body and spirituality. I don't know if I feel enlightened anymore.
I really want to continue to grow spiritually and I know that it shouldn't be tied to a person or environment. Still it feels hard to grow spiritually here or be in the now here and I don't know what I can do. I would love some advice. If anyone has any questions, please feel free to ask. And thank you so much for taking the time to read this <3 :)