Postpartum anxiety- is anyone else going through this?
I’ve noticed that postpartum anxiety isn’t talked about much, and not many people know about it. Most of us are familiar with postpartum depression, so if anyone has had experience with this, I’d really appreciate you sharing it here—it might help someone who goes through the same thing, including me.
I gave birth about 5 and a half months ago. When my baby turned 4 months old, the first symptoms started. It began with sweaty palms, pressure in my head, slightly elevated blood pressure (around 130/90—which didn’t feel “slight” to me at the time), and my heart rate would jump to 110–120 due to fear. Then I would fall into a cycle of panic attacks. I’d take a Bensedin, and everything would go away.
This went on for a few days until I realized that when I’m anxious, my blood pressure and heart rate go up because of that. I was okay for a few days, and then one time while I was out walking with my baby, I felt it all again—plus a feeling like I was going to faint and an overwhelming fear. After that, I started constantly monitoring my body, and every symptom would trigger panic and fear that something bad would happen to me.
I developed a fear of being alone with my baby and of going outside. Going to the store became a NIGHTMARE—the lights and crowded shelves make me dizzy, and then everything starts again. The fear is the strongest feeling, and I just can’t wait to get back home.
About two weeks ago, a new symptom appeared: after feeding the baby around 5–6 a.m., I become completely awake. I lie there with my eyes closed, but I just can’t fall asleep again.
I went to an internist, and everything is fine—they just diagnosed me with occasional tachycardia (when I’m anxious or panicking).
She prescribed Concor 1.25 mg, but I’m not taking it because I read about the side effects, and honestly I’m a bit scared to start it.
I’ve started drinking chamomile tea, and I’ll try lemon balm as well, along with Alora Ultra tablets prescribed by my general practitioner since they are herbal.
Today is a bit better—I managed to stop a few of those incoming panic/anxiety attacks by distracting myself, naming things I can see, and focusing on my breathing.