u/SistemFail

Guys, I need encouragement. Sometimes when I'm tempted, I forget why I'm trying to stop watching porn.

It was fine, I caught a cold because of the cold and rain over the weekend. I had some temptations during the night, I find it incredible that even when I'm sick, this can still happen.

I read Psalm 95, which praises the Lord and tells us not to harden our hearts when the Lord speaks.

Psalms 32:1-5 NIV

[1] Blessed is the one whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered. [2] Blessed is the one whose sin the Lord does not count against them and in whose spirit is no deceit. [3] When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. [4] For day and night your hand was heavy on me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. [5] Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, “I will confess my transgressions to the Lord.” And you forgave the guilt of my sin.

What are/were your experiences like? I've been through longer periods before, but now I'm having trouble getting past 7 days.

I'm someone who struggles to read the Bible, and this lack of reading keeps me distant from God, but today I tried something I saw online, which is simple: setting a timer for 5 minutes, And then, as I was about to read, I realized that the 5 minutes had passed very quickly, and I hadn't even read half a page of the Bible, so I ended up continuing. The problem is starting to read, certainly.

I ended up having several relapses in one night, I stayed up past my bedtime and gave myself the opportunity to sin. I realize that my relationship with God isn't strong enough, of course, through my own fault; I don't seek Him as much as I should, I'm still struggling with those thoughts that I won't understand anything, and also with the laziness of simply not wanting to read.

I ask for your prayers, my brothers and sisters, I want to overcome this, but it's been very difficult lately. I used to be able to go without it for longer, but now I can't.

Today was a quiet day. The possibility of a relapse crossed my mind a few times, since I don't usually leave the house on weekends, especially today when it was very cold and raining.

Something I need to improve is dedicating more of my time to Jesus; I spent a good part of the day playing games and another part studying.

Does anyone have any advice on self-control or anything like that? I'm only going to have my time with Jesus now before bed, but I feel like I'm putting Jesus last.

Today I had a relapse, I reported it here, after relapsing I felt really bad, because I had spoken to God yesterday and prayed a lot about what was happening in my life; So I prayed for forgiveness and went about doing some daily tasks, studying, and listening to praises and gospel music.That's when I realized that God was with me, and even after what I did, He didn't abandon me! That gave me strength. Because of that, the weight of guilt disappeared and I was even able to study my college work in peace. I'm very happy, thank you LORD.

How to treat anxiety triggers? Relapses have been coming on like anesthesia because of my pending tasks and academic pressures. If I end up procrastinating too.

I feel like trash for failing again; I put myself in the temptation and then regretted it.

I'm going to set small goals, I've seen some people doing it, my goal was to never relapse again, but that's a big step, I'll start with 3 days starting tomorrow. I ask for your prayers, my brothers and sisters.

In the morning I had some images and sensations; I wasn't at home but I was being tempted in the street.I remembered that relapse begins with small concessions, and so I resisted.

During the afternoon I was tempted again, something I realized was the feeling that comes over me, a feeling that "I should be doing something more productive" while I'm using my cell phone, Or the kind of thing like "you have college work to do and you're playing games." If it happened once in a while it would be okay, but it happens every time I go to relax, watch something, or have fun.

It's true that I have pending tasks, but I feel like I'm always procrastinating, even after completing the tasks or not being behind on them.

What do you think this could be? Is it just procrastination? Too much pressure? This feeling ends up giving me a lot of anxiety, and leads to relapses.

Guys, I'm going to talk about my history with this fight.

My first contact with it was when I was 12 years old, because of an older friend who talked about things like that and I didn't understand anything. All my friends knew except me, so I went looking for it and that's when it started.

Since then I have struggled with it, some moments of victory, others of relapse followed by more relapses. I believe this has affected my social life, as I have some difficulty forming deep friendships; nowadays I talk to very few people, and I don't have any close friends. I've dated several girls, but when I got older I decided I wanted something serious, so I looked for a Christian girlfriend, but I was still struggling with addiction.

At the beginning of the relationship I was fine, I went more than a month without it because of my country's mandatory military service. That made me forget about the addiction and it felt like I had overcome it.

After a few months I relapsed. My girlfriend and I were together every day, and that heated things up and contributed to the relapses as well. After a while, I broke up with her And I decided not to get into a relationship until this problem was resolved. So here I am today, in my twenties, still struggling, having difficulty getting through a week without relapsing.

My intimacy with God has also been damaged; it seems I've become insensitive to Him. I'm very lazy about reading the Bible, even though I enjoy reading it.The kinds of thoughts that come to mind are: "you won't learn anything" or "you'll read meaningless things," and that discourages me. I wanted to read and have God speak to me through the Bible, but all I get is silence.

Guys, sorry for the long text, it's something I don't have anyone to talk to and I need advice. God bless you.

I had said I would report on my days here, and today will be no different; I had a relapse.

I've been tempted since yesterday and had managed to resist, but today I stumbled. I need some advice, guys: When I'm at home, right after a tiring day, I just want to rest my mind.It's at this time of day that the urge appears. At these times, what to do?

Guys, i ask for pray's and Advice.

Guys, today has been difficult.I can't say I'm confident, because desires knock on the door at any opportunity. I realized that any kind of frustration or dissatisfaction is a trigger. I realized that I'm stressed today too. Like yesterday, writing here what I'm feeling has lessened the urge to relapse.

Even so, I ask for prayers and advice. At what time of day do you read the Bible? I usually read at night, but I don't think that's right because we end up forgetting what we read the next day.

Today has been a more complicated day; weekdays accumulate stress, and my body tells me to let go, but I remember the purpose of wanting to stop this addiction: To be closer to God; to be a good husband and father in the future; not to live a double life; among other reasons.

The fact is that temptation comes even when we are close to God, but Christ helps us in our struggles. Even at this moment as I am writing, the desire has diminished. Glory to God!

I ask for words of encouragement and advice, brothers.

I'm on the day after a relapse, and I wanted to share how my day went.

Overall, today was productive. In the morning, I cleaned the house and organized some things in my room that I had been putting off due to procrastination and games. I also practiced Euphonium, which I hadn't done in a few weeks.

In the afternoon, I focused on studying. I have an exam this coming Tuesday, so I'm trying to stay consistent. Later today, I'll be going to church.

As for urges: they were weak today. A few thoughts and images came up, but nothing too intense. Still, I know this is a dangerous phase — I can't let my guard down just because it feels easier. I've been dealing with this long enough to know how it works.

I also made some practical changes: I uninstalled my competitive games and decided to take a break from Instagram. During the week I don't have much free time anyway, so I think this can help reduce triggers. I'll see how it goes over the next few days.

I want to stay vigilant, especially as I get closer to days 4–5, which are usually the hardest for me.

Also, thank you for the comments I received yesterday — they really helped me get back up and keep going.

One day at a time.

I'm on the day after a relapse, and I wanted to share how my day went.

Overall, today was productive. In the morning, I cleaned the house and organized some things in my room that I had been putting off due to procrastination and games. I also practiced Euphonium, which I hadn't done in a few weeks.

In the afternoon, I focused on studying. I have an exam this coming Tuesday, so I'm trying to stay consistent. Later today, I'll be going to church.

As for urges: they were weak today. A few thoughts and images came up, but nothing too intense. Still, I know this is a dangerous phase — I can't let my guard down just because it feels easier. I've been dealing with this long enough to know how it works.

I also made some practical changes: I uninstalled my competitive games and decided to take a break from Instagram. During the week I don't have much free time anyway, so I think this can help reduce triggers. I'll see how it goes over the next few days.

I want to stay vigilant, especially as I get closer to days 4–5, which are usually the hardest for me.

Also, thank you for the comments I received yesterday — they really helped me get back up and keep going.

One day at a time.

I had two relapses today; before giving in, I spent the whole day playing games and lying in bed.

I'm tired of this cycle repeating itself and I'm willing to report here every day how I'm doing. I noticed some users doing this and decided to do something similar as well. I believe it will help me stay strong. I ask for help with advice and encouragement, brothers in Christ.

I need help, I can't seem to spend less time on my phone; anything that isn't tech-related seems so uninteresting. What do you do to avoid excessive phone use? I apologize if my writing isn't good, I don't speak English. I'm translating.