Would it be okay for me to reach out to my therapist again after ghosting them
long story short I had a therapist (uses they/them pronouns) in my first few months of uni. did around 4 sessions. I loved their services and it was a great fit but it was a lot of mental effort and it drained the life out of me. I also realised I was not ready to start therapy again. instead of apologising to them and explaining the situation I said I can't make it to the session (before cancellation period) and they said no worries and asked to reschedule. I just left the email sitting in my inbox and honestly I didn't mean to and time just kept passing and I felt like I couldn't respond anymore despite them sending a follow up. almost a year later and I am struggling again and would love to have them as my therapist but I'm embarrassed to show face after ghosting them and being immature esp since I don't have an excuse.
even if they would take me back I would feel so bad but also I know I would feel more comfortable with them as my therapist. any advice or similar situations? is this something therapists experience?