Threw away my dab pen
I only started smoking ever last year when I was 20, half-way into this year I started seeing my addict genes pop up and it scared me so bad I quit for months.
Then I got into some trouble and went on a 6 day binge because it was the only thing I had. An old Dab pen from January.
I was genuinely sucking on it like a crack addict, It was mostly empty and I wasn't getting that high but I would sit there and inhale until SOMETHING came out. It definitely wasnt dab anymore, it left a terrible taste in my mouth and this gunk all over my lips. Id just wake up, hit it, dopamine farm for 8 hours, succumb to slumber, over and over.
Well five days ago i threw that sucker away. I was going to try to macgyver that shit, make it work with the tiny dab that was left. But it struck me as way too far.
I'm going to try to quit this and my other addiction in unison. The withdrawals from both are extremely mild which is amazing. But I was acting like a bitch for 3 days straight. I want my personality back.
Its not so much that I miss being high, I have this strange craving for fun/community all the time and when I smoke I start feeling like I'm surrounded by friends, when really I'm just watching videos of strangers doing stuff.. weird I know.