I don’t ever want to be with a man again and I hope I stay true to this
Im really hurting. I don’t want to give this another shot, it hardly seems worth it. I’m 3 months post break up, the anger has fully set in. I’ve had too many negative experiences not only with romantic relationships but with male figures in my life. Most women to me end up alone at some point usually out of necessity. I think my preoccupation with men has been because I felt like I needed someone to take me away from the dark thoughts that plague my mind constantly. I’ve learned that won’t help. As you get older in the dating scene, dating men only seems to become riskier and riskier. It’s not worth the potential STDs, emotional manipulation, stepping out when you have a kid, cheating, physical abuse, and financial abuse. After a lifetime of not valuing myself I think my goal in life from this point on is to realize my self worth. I don’t want to stray from this, no matter how good everything feels in the heat of the moment, there’s too many of the aforementioned risks to make any of this worth it.