Problem with marriage as a Revert
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I’m having a problem with marriage , I’m 23M white revert from the west and months ago I met a syrian girl who seems to really willingly marry me and she’s pious as well. We’ve met in person two times and made an attempt to go to the mosque and marry however wasn’t possible so we’re waiting .
The problem is I’m noticing toxic patterns on her end and it’s making me depressed because as a revert I did fell in love with her and she did too , but not long ago she came back from Umrah and is now telling me how many men approached her , how many mothers were telling her to marry their sons and telling me she has a lot of options and that if she wanted to rush this she would after I told her better to go slow etc but maybe she said this because I did block her not long ago and unblocked her and ghosted her and maybe she noticed the pull and is now saying this to get me back in ? I blocked her because I was already noticing toxic behaviour then unblocked because realised I like her .
Now some of you might think this is good because she chose me but at the same time is very toxic and I don’t know what to do . I hate that she tells me how desirable she sis to other men and I’m also afraid she might be talking with more guys behind my back . One thing I noticed is that she came back from Umrah super thirsty for me literally triple texting me and saying she got signs from Allah that I’m the one etc , many sweet things . Maybe because I’m white and good looking I stand out from the crowd in saudi for example where she got her numbers but idk what to think of this tbh . I just didn’t expect this she kept going and going how many men talked to her she even got one number and also how many men she has on her country wanting her thinking she’s a goddess Astaghfirullah .
I just want to have a normal woman in my life and a normal marriage like everyone man. The only woman I genuinely like physically and her deen , how she makes me feel turns out to be toxic .