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Should they at least provide support and reassurance during the process? Open communication about next steps?

I had a giant medication change and mine just ignores my messages about how mentally unwell I feel. My anxiety and depression has never been worse. I am terrified and can’t even get reassurance. Am I wrong to seek that?

Mind you, I stated in previous appointments I don’t message because I don’t want to take advantage but was encouraged to. All to finally build up the courage and have those messages ignored. It’s just making me feel worse and like a burden.

I’m a mom and just trying to fix myself for my kids and it’s going the complete wrong direction. I’m genuinely so scared and feel so alone. I feel like the carpet was ripped from underneath me and I was left to fend for myself with no clue what to do.

I am really going through it with medication changes and ppd right now. I am anxious and depressed to a debilitating extent. I told my psychiatrist that I intentionally do not send her messages outside of our appointments and she told me that I should send them any and every time I’m struggling. So I did that and she doesn’t respond to them. She responds to other messages I send about refills or medication questions. But if I state how I’m feeling about treatments not working then she does respond.

She doesn’t have to respond. It’s just that she encouraged me to send messages when I am struggling, so I did. Now I just feel stupid. I was hoping for reassurance. Am I expecting too much?

The only mom friend I’ve made makes offers to help but when I finally accept, she goes on a weird Instagram spree liking and sharing posts about how she’s tired of one sided friendships. Mind you, I am hyperaware of everything and constantly feel like a burden so I make sure I bring snacks/food for not only my children but hers too so she doesn’t have to worry about that. I have maybe accepted a handful of times and she’s mad when I accept and mad when I don’t. She’s impossible. Nothing I say is good enough. She doesn’t not care about my circumstances vs hers. Her husband does all the cleaning and grocery shopping and cooking. I do everything on my own. Getting my kids dressed and packed to bring to her house is harder than just staying home. Responding to her messages is exhausting knowing nothing I say matters. I don’t click with her. I don’t feel comfortable around her. But my kids do.

And I’m depressed. I’m exhausted. I’m being taken off of and put on medications every week lately to make this depression go away. I’m drowning. I have no one. I just want to cry.

Like literally did nothing

I was wondering if anyone had a similar experience and maybe gave it another shot with success?

My psychiatrist wants me to try another round but I can’t decide. I feel like I’ll never get better at this point.

ETA: I’ve been on Wellbutrin and Effexor since 2018. Effexor stopped working when I was pregnant. I had already tried upping Wellbutrin but it didn’t do anything but make my hands hurt. I switched from Effexor to Pristiq and it was amazing! Upped Pristiq and after a couple of months it stopped working. Tried to increase again postpartum and the anger was insane. Tried Zurzuvae and almost felt more depressed, I’d say. Found out I was severely hyperthyroid so treating that. Taken off Pristiq and put on Auvelity a week ago. I can’t tell a difference but not sure if it’s the withdrawal from Pristiq. Tried beta blockers to help withdrawal and it didn’t help.

What helped you manage the intense emotions of withdrawal?

I tried beta blockers and it just doesn’t help. Anyone take buspar? That’s my other option.

Pristiq worked really well until it didn’t. I’m postpartum and my needs changed. I tried increasing and it made me incredibly angry. Like unrecognizable. Now I’m going through that with coming off entirely. My kids deserve a better me. I’m so defeated.

On 50mg, tried increasing but all it did was make me absolutely livid all the time. I am postpartum so something changed for me because it worked great at first but then nothing. Tried Zurzuvae to boost it and it didn’t work at all.

I had to stop and start Auvelity. I’m so irritable. Dizzy at bed time. When will the withdrawal stop?

I have 3 kids and just feel so discouraged.