u/Seekdelirium

Completely my fault. I’m on SM and the 30 seconds until you’re back in free chat isn’t enough time to wash my toys in between shows. I would also hate to pause my stream after every show because I usually get the most traffic when I come out of a show. I stream from my living room and the bathroom is across the hall but I feel like it takes more than 3 mins to get the toys clean and rinsed off so I don’t want to be away from my stream for that long. I also don’t want to miss out on anyone who comes into my room after a show because I was away. Any tips for cleaning toys between shows that don’t require leaving the stream? Especially when you have shows that are back to back? I was thinking of putting a Tupperware of soapy water in my room to put the toys in after shows but not sure about the logistics of that lol

Was having a really great day then had a call with a guy c2c who said he was going to find me and rape me. I’m all freaked out now ugh just completely ruined my day. I was going to go for a walk after my shift today and now I don’t want to lol I know I’m being ridiculous but I just feel unsafe.

Ive been doing EMDR with a therapist for about 3 months now and often times I leave sessions wondering if it’s really working or worth it. Maybe I’m not a good candidate for EMDR? Sometimes I wish there was more discussion about the things I’m feeling rather than just recalling memories. I don’t know.