u/Secretlythrowedaway

Hi! I'm kind of in a weird state in my life between jobs, and I've been finding myself to be pretty lonely lately with a lot of time on my hands. I want someone who I can talk to about anything and everything, who enjoys talking as much as me. My favorite topics are telling each other about our days, just anything that comes to mind really. I'm also a big fan of voice memos, and I'm pretty open.

Interests wise, the one I currently do the most is writing stories or with other people. Otherwise I would love to have someone to game with as well. I play Dead by Daylight, Outlast Trials, Marvel Rivals, Roblox, Overwatch, Finals. I would be down to try other games, as long as it's not MOBA or anything too sweaty. Something that we can put on in the background while we talk. I'm also a big fan of TV shows and movies, mostly horror but I live thriller and fantasy as well. My favorite ones are Game of Thrones and Supernatural. I love to draw and meet other fellow artists!

I'm looking for something more in-depth and not basic topics like music or hiking. I want to know more about you, like why are you on this Subreddit, what are you looking for, what's going on in your life right now?

I'm from Europe, CEST timezone, so I'm looking for someone around that timezone too. And please only message me if you think we have something in common. If you made it this far into my post, please include your favorite cake flavor so I know you read it

I'm looking for advice, opinions or support about this because I've been really struggling. I've been friends with my BPD person for 6 and a half years. We had a routine where we talked every day for hours on the phone, and had a lot in common when it came to doing activities together. I noticed that my time and days passed by much faster and better with her in my life. It even got to the point where I was willing to put up with the drama and abuse as part of it.

But I think it's over for good now and it was my last straw when she tried to ruin my dream trip to Japan. I don't think I can be friends with her anymore after that. It feels like I wasted my life so focused on someone that won't even stick around in my life.

I've tried to branch out to other friendships and not just her, but it's been very difficult because as you know, most normal and healthy people have a life. So they're not always exactly available. It's been making me painfully lonely and I don't know how to handle it. I miss having someone that was obsessed with me. And I don't know how long it would take for me to get back to normal interactions. I had a routine with her and someone that's autistic, that was very predictable and comforting to me.

I have friends that I talk to every day but it's not for hours on end. And I'm afraid that I will begin lashing out at them for not giving me enough attention. I don't know what normal is anymore after so long with someone like my BPD friend.

It would be very helpful if I could talk to someone about this, or if you guys can share your own experiences.