u/Scary-Tie-665

I am 15 and i never had a relationship, no one has ever confessed to me and guys seem to have absolutely no interest in me. Am i actually this unlovable? I barely have any friends either, but i hate them so much.

I cry everyday and every night because i am a loser.

Girls much younger than me are losing their virginities and going to parties meanwhile i just sit in my room and play games without normally socialising. I got rejected all of the times i confessed to someone and i genuinely have no idea what am i doing wrong. I think its just because i am genuinely unattractive.

I genuinely don't think i will make it to my next birthday.

I am so heartbroken and angry that I get to live with this face and body forever.

Everyone else was blessed and i was cursed, i don't know what I did to deserve such suffering.

I tried makeup, beauty filters and i still look like a neanderthal man while being a teenage girl.

I never had a boyfriend or anything like that. Only online situationships where they wanted me only for pics or grooming.

I am tired of living like this, i look like a third gender if it existed.

I can't go a day without feeling jealous, mad, angry and suicidal because of how incredibly hard to look at i am.

I am embarrassed to go to school or any public places because i am terrified of what people will think about me or say to me.

I get called ugly and get bullied almost on a daily basis at school and online, i feel unwanted and underdeveloped because girls much younger than me get everything while i just exist.

I genuinely dont see the point of waking up everyday, going to a place where everyone despises me, get stared and laughed at then go home to an emotionally absent mother that doesn't believe in mental illnesses or anything like that.

"Every girl feels like that"

No mom, i don't think every girl cries when eating and purges meals and attempts suicide because of her insecurities.