u/Scared_Juggernaut333

I have so much on my plate at the moment and it’s been going on for months and i imagine months to come. Today I read about a woman who was really stressed and then developed bowel cancer a couple years later. Now i am stressing that im going to get cancer and die. I keep saying once the stress is over then i’ll live. but what about if as soon as its over ill pass away?

My stomach hurts everyday from how anxious i am and i’ve been losing weight for months i feel weak all the time. i’m doing counselling but it isn’t helping. i’ve tried medication but it just provides temporary relief. i can’t escape the cards ive been dealt. i’m only 24, i want so badly to live, but what if im heading to an early grave? my gut can’t help but feel like im not meant to live long.

I'm a first time solo traveler (F24) and have 1-2 weeks to use for a solo trip (1-2 weeks if azores, 2 weeks if Bali). I'm coming from the UK. I'm ideally looking for somewhere safe, peaceful with warmth and slow way of living just to relax and reset. I went to santa teresa costa rica with a friend a couple years ago and would love to replicate a similar vibe, but I also love hiking and trails and the sea and would like a tropical feel. I'm torn between Bali and Azores.

Pro Bali:

- warm weather guaranteed

- tropical vibe nice beaches

- easy to travel around no need for a car

- nice spirituality and wellness element

- could make friends in hostels?

Cons Bali:

- far away and this is my first solo trip so a bit worried i won't be safe?

- worried about the fuel strikes at the moment

- expensive flights

Pro Azores:

- closer to home so safer for first solo trip?

- cheaper flights

- gorgeous scenery and nice hikes

- I'm half Portuguese so familiar with language and have always wanted to visit

- maybe quieter? less touristy?

Cons Azores

- potential rain/colder weather

- would need a car and worried about driving on the right hand side

Based on my pros and cons what would people recommend? Or is there a sweet spot between the two? Am i missing anything that would help me decide a little easier?