A romance chapter that couldn't start
Hello all, writing here because I feel that's the only way I can cope about my situation...
I have never dated a girl (I am working now) so that might be the reason why I was so excited but well anyways there was this cute girl in my office that I wanted to talk from the start, luck had it and we are in same unit now looking after different work area but yes same unit nonetheless. We get to talk about work and ofc off-the-work things too, I thought things will progress smoothly if I were to continue like this but in these off-the-work talks she told me about how her friend circle broke because of a guy...
She told the guy that she wouldn't be dating anybody and will be more on arranged marriage side. That guy still interfered with her, told her he likes her and what not and things went downhill rapidly, the friendship group broke apart. After hearing that, it froze me.... I realised I have no chance at all and now it will be so weird for me to continue talking with her as before I was doing. Her work shift was about to over so I said bye to her and went back to my seat.
To be honest I was prepared that if I ever get a hint that she is annoyed by me or she is already in a relationship I will back off immediately but this case is so different, the romance can't even start. I don't know when the next time we will be free to talk what I am even gonna talk about, it was all on a single hope but that disappeared in a very peculiar way. She is a good friend but if it was possible i would want it to be much more.
Who knows even if there was 'no dating' thing condition never existed for her, she would still reject me later but that chapter couldn't even start.
Ooof that's a lot of words and thanks for reading it, I will just let this post stay so even if one day I forget about it all it will stay for someone else to read... Thank you