Just doing a rewatch to make my life seem better. How did I forget about petty Betty already trying to get into Julia’s reproductive medical business before she even landed in the country? No wonder she didn’t want to share her pregnancy with her.
My sweet girl Halo just passed about an hour ago. She was only 9. Came to us with her sister as foster kittens & the rescue closed & just forgot to tell us. She had hyperthyroidism so the past few years have been a struggle. But today was just out of the blue & I’m devastated. What made it worse, I called the vet, told them that it was an emergency, only to have them say the vet(s) were at lunch. This is also a Vet Hospital so I don’t understand. Called a 2nd vet hospital, same response. Finally got the most lovely compassionate veterinary treatment for her. Though I am so sad, I’m glad she’s not in pain & I hate that her last couple of hours was met with, eh, we’re going to lunch.
My husband’s mental health has been deteriorating in the past couple of years, but has gotten so bad the past year, in particular the past 6 months, I really don’t know if I can handle the emotional stress. It got so scary last month that my FIL had me come to their home & stay with them for the night. He had what I can only describe as a psychotic break. Screaming at me about things he believed I “probably will do, because it’s just like you”. Throwing & breaking my things, blocking my exit. Then called the police & said I was abusing him. (I weigh all of 110 lbs against his 250lbs). I set some hard boundaries when I reluctantly came home, but here we are today & I’m super anxious because I was just screamed at for locking the top, (deadbolt), lock when I returned home from a super early morning doctor appointment. He had left through the garage, hours later, returned & came in through the front door. Apparently, I’m working against him, not very smart, (he’s actually said much worse), and I just feel beat down. I’ve never spoken harshly to him or unkind, even though he wants an argument. I have a boatload of trauma that I don’t dump on anyone & he obviously needs help, which I told him last month needed to happen because I couldn’t continue living on edge. I love him, hate this version, but could I handle if he did something that hurt himself or others if I left? I feel I’m the only one keeping him somewhat in check. But is this worth sacrificing my mental health?
TLDR: Husband bipolar. Directs all his mania, rage, anger at me over perceived slights. I guess it’s more about how can I leave? I have no family or support system other than my in-laws.