u/Sadworld99

I didn't wanna psyche myself out so I didn't read any horror stories. now I'm two weeks out from surgery and my symptoms are back, but worse and there's more of them. Read a bunch of accounts that the nerve decompression fucked up people's lives for good. I'm so scared. I had no idea this surgery is apparently infamous for going bad so often. I don't know what to do or how I'm gonna work. Been suffering for four years. God I hope I didn't just make it permanent

I'm not smart enough to be better or appreciate what I have. it's just one fuckin thing after another. I've blown up my life over and over and over again and now I'm ruined, like I actually ruined it. My health is terrible, I have no future in any job market because I've thrown away the last ten years on my now cold, dead dreams. Now I'm couch surfing again like a fucking child. I cant romanticize it, I can't enjoy any single moment for the pain that I'm always in. I haven't been able to lay down comfortably for years. I hate my reflection. I hate my body. I hate the sun. I have had access to so many things that could make me happy and they didnt. I have had so many chances to make something of myself and I haven't. I'm a fucking loser and I'm tired of this. I'm tired of feeling like an idiot for wanting things to get better. I have no right to indignation because I actually am an idiot, there is no reason things would get better for me.

I've been in pain for about fifteen years. three or four years ago my arm got in the mix, which was a nail in my coffin. my quality of life changed irreversibly as I fought to get anyone to take my pain seriously enough to consider surgery. Finally got it two weeks ago. The numbness came back worse and now my wrist hurts too. I'm so scared. I wanted to entertain hope for just this bit because I miss using my arm so, so much, now it's setting in that I might be screwed and stuck with this painful damn thing attached to me.

to be clear up front, I only have the base game and I'm considering getting the expansion as a birthday gift for myself. I've looked at unlocking the classes outside the base game and have found that they're locked behind a 40 dollar paywall. I'm guessing this is the expansion. is there no way to unlock them without buying the whole thing? is there already an expansion available that I'm missing somehow? and will the new classes be able to play the base campaign too?