u/Sad_lonely_girll

When I was 7-8, my mom used to beat me up a lot. I remember when she used to chase me around trying to hit me and I’d always try to run. Whenever I did something bad she’d always beat me up violently especially on my back, legs and stomach. She’d always pull my hair too. I also remember multiple times when she used to let my siblings have lunch/ dinner but would deny me if I did something bad. One time I shouted “goodnight” to her and my little baby brother was sleeping, I accidentally woke him up so she came upstairs running to me, ignored my crying baby brother, and proceeded to scream at me and beat me up violently. I still remember everything. Last time she hit me was when I was 14 because I cut my hair too short. I don’t remember anything from my child hood. Only these parts of it. And whenever I remember I just start crying. I wish she treated me normally. Maybe i wouldn’t have bpd and other mental health problems.

I’m a 16 year old girl and I don’t know if I can even talk about this here but I’ll try. So my parents got divorced about 2 years ago and my dad remarried, his wife’s now pregnant (9 months) she’s giving birth in like 2 weeks. Ever since my parents got divorced Ive been so depressed. I wanna live with my mom. I begged my dad and cried for him and he didn’t let me. One time my 2 aunts were over and just visiting, then somehow the topic came up so I burst into tears and just couldn’t control myself. I told them. I told them how desperately I wanted to live with my mom and cried so much. One of them rolled her eyes at me and said “wow.. yall really need family therapy”. After they left I cried more to my dad then he agreed, but then the next day my aunts called him and convinced him to not let him do that for some reason. Bitch what’s the fucking issue with your bitter ass? She told him that if I live with my mom then my sis should too. Which is dumb because she has no interest in that and I know my dad’s just trying to get rid of her because she has autism (also she’s 19). Also this dumb slut (my dad’s wife) sat me down and asked me a bunch of questions about why I wanted to live with my mom. I mean I feel like it’s obvious. These past few months were so hard for me. I starve on weekdays, then on weedends when I go to my moms I eat which honestly I’m not blaming my dad. He offers me food from time to time but my eating disorder doesn’t help. Not to mention my online bf ghosted me 3 months ago which made everything worse. I haven’t had motivation to study, eat, and do basic stuff. I hate my life