u/Ryuken_ishida25

I remember russia has internet issues in paper in March and April due to something , and is the situation the same still ?

In st petersburg and moscow , only cities I know of

We met 20 days ago exactly online chat group, both left it after meeting each other that much is confirmed, talking daily

Weove in diff countries and she is a working russian women, who i vibes with good, it was good, says looking for a husband right now to marry and have a good life with, and have kids and such, we vibe on a lot of topics,

I have borderline personality disorder and anxious attachment while she is your average russian girl from Moscow in terms of personality idk how else to explain but she's drop dead gorgeous.

We have talked about sex and all, she knows i am virgin she has had 3 boyfriends and a high count for men she had been sexual active with said she doesn't want to share hers because it's a secret but later said above 7, just this.

She would send me pictures of her, and when I would compliment she would ignore it and text me a lot and we would talk a lot too and but recently she's been distant.

I am starting to travel a lot, internationally and I told her about it as she was delighted said she should join this summer and she was like maybe, and we kind of flirt sometimes and she talk openly about her sexual kinks.

She knows i have been having a bad mental health time, since we meet and all.

She justs shuts me up nowadays saying busy with work, even when her officer hours are over,didn't talk me over with on the weekend and not having our mandatory 2 video calls of a week that were there to keep the friendship strong, went out with her male friends this week and doesn't have anything much to say except basic stuff when ask what they did, I was shut off whole weekend.

Am I being used? Groomed? I genuinely did starting to like her, good personality and all and the fact that we fell together so well actually

I have other female interaction too, so not a complete loser,

I don't know how to proceed with her trying to have a call with her to sort things out I have made a list of issues -

Her being absent for past 4-6 days and just being distant, she said it was working when work was over, texted 5 hours later with a pic of her with a few friends and when I asked why send this? She said -WHY NOT,

Please help me decide what should I do, an female influencer friend of mine said that

Don't take her seriously and if you are talking in the flow be non chalant and not anxious attached, I have issues I have histrory of CPTSD and BPD.