Opened up about my doubts and now everything is falling apart. What to do?
I’m almost of legal age, and I recently graduated high school. I’ve already been accepted into a college, but with everything happening right now, I’m honestly not sure if my parents will still support me continuing—whether financially or even just with basic things like transportation.
Recently, they found out that I’ve been in a relationship they didn’t know about. When they confronted me, I don’t know what came over me, but I ended up opening up about almost everything I’ve been keeping inside—my doubts about the teachings, the leadership, and even my struggles with belief in God.
They reacted very strongly. My mom basically said she’s given up on me. She told me she won’t kick me out, but since I “think I’m smart,” I should prove it by succeeding without God. My dad said something I can’t unhear—that he wishes I hadn’t been born if he knew I’d turn out like this.
Now they’re taking me to visit a relative who’s a minister in another province to “talk sense” into me and try to bring me back to the doctrines. They’ve also told me to stop performing my duties and attending services for now, and they’ll do the same, because they believe continuing without faith brings a curse on the household.
Because of how intense everything has gotten, I’m even considering telling them that I’ve already ended my relationship just to avoid making things worse, even though that’s not really what I want.
They’re extremely disappointed in me, and everything feels tense and uncertain.
I don’t know what to do next. Do I go along with them for now to keep the peace, especially since I still depend on them? Or should I stand my ground? Has anyone here been in a similar situation, especially when college plans were affected?