Transferring soon, and struggling
I don’t know if I’ll post this, but on the off chance that I do, I’m transferring to a four year soon and I’m worried. Mostly about keeping my grades up.
I’m someone who keeps my head down and doesn’t interact much with others, which is fine, it hasn’t cause me any issues. The problem more-so lies in my work ethic—I’m very spotty with turning in assignments, particularly in starting them, which has always been a challenge for me nearing the end of high school when COVID had first started and since then transitioning into college. I dropped out for a year without mentioning it to anyone out of shame both due to anxiety, which I’m now working through, and this block of not being able to simply do my work.
It’s so hard to start assignments sometimes, and readings also feel like something I have to sludge through, and I don’t even get around to those most times. I get around to most assignments last minute, or days afterwards; at worst, I settle for C’s, or fail the class—my grades are good, but never good enough. I try, but I don’t understand how people can just do *it—*it feels like I just can’t get it right no matter what. All those “study tips” and advice never really stick much; I can take notes, but find I can’t understand it in the long run. Logically, I can do well, and I can get most of my work done, but it takes so much effort to simply do so.
It’s a shame because I want to be passionate about my work and I want to enjoy my major, but this struggle has made it difficult and I’m worried I won’t do well in a four year after feeling like I’ve coasted my way through community college. My friends, even if they procrastinate, still manage to space out their work and get it in on time even if it isn’t their best and they still come out well off. It feels like I can’t get myself to do the same. I often wonder why it’s so different when it’s me. If it’s simply a discipline issue, is there anything I can try?