They distort reality and it’s making me feel crazy.
I’m only 6 months into my navy career and at A school. Yet, I’ve already gotten myself into trouble and I don’t understand how. I’m a very prosocial person. Classmates are cool with me. Before the Navy, I loved college and did well. Never got into trouble. Since childhood to adulthood I’ve always been seen as a "good kid". And now here I’m getting myself into trouble. Any sort of response back simply calmly and politely pointing out a contradiction, misunderstanding, or lie/exaggeration is viewed as being disrespectful. I guess I am supposed to let someone lie or misconstrue what occurred bc they are higher ranking??? I’m becoming so exhausted from it. I truly don’t understand how people can be so egotistical and arrogant. And they don’t feel embarrassed or morally ashamed. That’s really what baffles me. Why do they not feel shame for their behavior? Why do they feel inclined to laugh at people and make a spectacle of them. There’s nothing fun about that. It is the most low level of enjoyment. I’m really trying to keep my head down and graduate but every day in school is like walking on egg shells. It’s incredibly emotionally exhausting, and I’ve already gotten myself a counseling chit.